I was ok! I really was...
and then everytime I find myself
beginning to accept my situation,
despite it's short-comings...
some outside force always comes
in and changes that...
One of the many perks of being
young, naive, and gullible.
iloveyou's were meant for the stories
you read in your childhood.
I'm no princess, so I don't know why the
hell I expected Prince Charming to
sweep me off my feet and carry me
off into the sunset. I let someone
get the best of me and guess what,
I'm still the nobody I was before
I met him and after he asked me
to be his 24/7...Hope is a big ass
misconception. But it's my own fault
for wearing such a big heart on my sleeve.
Now it's quite broken.
I must be undeserving of happiness,
love or any form of ecstacy for
that matter. Things aren't meant
to be...things just happen. Yesterday...
I wore a smile and I held my chin up and
I was ready to make shit happen but
I can't do that because I'm stuck on this
fucking emotional rollercoaster...
I tried to avoid the tears that
are falling now. I tried to avoid
last nights sleepless night. I tried
to avoid today's loss of life. I'm up
one day and then I'm down the next. Now
my poor defenseless heart holds fear
and just quivers with every waking thought
of you.
I don't know where to go from here.
I fell in love and hit rock bottom. Luckily
for him, he fell out. Kashmir,
your "all" doesn't make the cut.
it's not good enough, your not good enough
and you'll never be,
worth loving.
Yeah, I can take a hint.
1 comment:
what you can't seem to understand is
that it's really me. I don't think
I'll ever be able to hold a relationship
until i gather myself.
i'm going through it right now.
idk what to think. i just need
to be alone. DON'T EVER DOUBT THAT I LOVE YOU!
because you can believe it, you are my
first love, you are my all, you are my heart.
i just need to be alone right now.
it's better than being with you and hurting you along the ride.
i love you kashmir, i just need time to love myself.
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